Interboundary Mediation Coordinator

Well folks, I hope you were able to join us for our very first webshow on Monday. If not, there will be another one this Monday 16th and I believe we will be continuing them every monday. If you did miss the episode, be sure to catch it on the Slaps facebook page.

Okay, getting that out of the way, its been another great and positive week for me. On a personal level, my children will be returning back to school soon and as will I, to finish my last year of an education major. Woo for Rae! Don't worry, I'll still have time for everyone here. I'll make sure of it.

However, I'm sure you didn't want to read Rae's blog to see how she's trying to pan out her class schedule. Of course not. You want the juicy stuff, I get it. The "super" side, the side that not only helps people so wonderfully, but was also my personal nightmare growing up.

At one psychic party I talked about my past experiences and some of my stories. My talk was barely five minutes in and I could see I was already being looked at with "Get on with it, already" eyes. It was that precise moment in time when I realized that this whole "psychic" stuff wasn't about me. No one cared about how I'd solved murders (yes, really) or how I'd found $1 million for charity (yes, really, I did.). It wasn't about me, it had never been about me - it was about you. Yes you, the one staring at the computer screen. Every one of you whom needs me I have never turned away -I had no right to assume it was about me. My work in the psychic field
HAS to be a selfless act because thats the laws of nature. Remember that choice I've spoken about in the past? Well, thats my choice, I let you come to me and I do all I can to give you what you need to move on, past demons and all.

Yet...at the same time, I was the one who suffered the dreams, seeing things that shouldn't be seen and knowing too much - from a friends father who was having an affair - to a poor friend who had passed away and it wasn't known to my client. Who was there for me? No one, because its a personal journey. I had to be there for me. I had to learn. If I can do it, you guys can.

Am I rambling? So sorry, I do that a lot. People lean on me, when they need that lift up in their life and I'm fine with that. I don't see it as a hinderance - you'll find that I'm proud to help. When I recently visited another psychic (yes, I paid for the privillage), she said some things in my mind that stuck. She said that my gift was different from theirs. That I didn't charge, I was undercutting what I was worth. She also said I wasn't giving myself enough credit for what I did. We somewhat argued, because I told her I once I had charged (a reasonable sum) and couldn't do it, I had to leave my little side room. She told me that my destiny was in this damn feild and I needed to focus on it more. So, I guess joining slaps was a compromise because I can still help yet we don't charge.

This leads to a topic I feel needs to be desperately addressed. I hear all the time "A psychic is a fake, if they charge a fee." Please, don't always think this. Yes, there are some terrible fakes out there and its caused so many problems for us genuine ones. Whether a psychic charges or not, however, should not be used as an "evaluation" of their skills. In my own personal experience, I did my readings for free for years, but I became in high demand. To the point where my husband was getting annoyed. "I really want to do this" I stressed to him and continued onwards for free. Then...the rediculously petty calls came. A lady called to know if she was pregnant (you can't get a test for that?) I was called with "Do you know where my keys are???" Reluctantly, I agreed that I needed to put a stop cap on the petty things.I had people with genuine concerns who needed me more. So, regrettably, I caved in and reasoned with myself that if someone was genuine about me, they would understand and appreciate my gift and wouldn't mind paying for it.

Sitting at my table, in my side room (after spending money to decorate it). I recieved some clients. They were willing to pay, but I hated it. I felt as if I were taking advantage of their personal situtation and all of them needed me on a serious level. I had a college professor who said "I'll pay for more time!! Please tell me more!!" and I just...I just couldn't do it. I told her to put her money away. Another factor I faced charging for my service, was that I really felt I needed to provide these people with a lot of information - especially because they were paying. That added to the pressure and wasn't good for me. The time alotment of 30 minutes never helped my cause, I always had more to tell them. I couldn't use dicipline halfway through a reading and say "Oh, and uncle John wants me to tell you..." then look at my watch "Oh, I'm sorry, if you want more, you need to pay -but your 30 minutes is up.". Then of course, I also had attachments to my clients who easily became friends.

My biggest issue charging clients for a reading was actually fear of being considered a fake, no matter how good my gift. Its always been a problem even if I have nothing to hide. I even hate the term "Psychic" in reference to someone's abilities or gift.I told my husband this, and he said I should refer to myself as an "Interboundary Mediation Coordinator" Yeah..maybe I'll stick to psychic after all? lol.

My favorite phrase from people who meet and know about me is "You don't LOOK like a psychic." Well, eh, would it make you feel better if I sat in a dark room with the curtains closed, peering with long fingernails into my globe of destiny? It won't change my gift, but this is the general perception I get from people. They also expect me to be far older than I am. Understandable, most psychic's take years to get to where I find myself now. Everyone's different and do things differently so I guess there's no 'right' or 'wrong' to it.

Thats a nice way to end the blog, so I'll be speaking to everyone soon. Feel free to add a comment or question, I check my blog often. :)